Thursday, 3 July 2008

Diaphanous

I have my softer moments. Times when I am not barbed, not clad in black and not tottering about in pointy-toed high heeled shoes.

Times when I am pulled so tautly in every direction I feel my substance thin to a sugar-spun translucence. I stand at the window and hold up a hand to the sun and gaze at the red glow of capillaries illuminated, my blood pulsing still, proving I am not yet as other-worldly as I feel. I am still a solid mass, I still cast a shadow where I walk.

How can someone who takes up this much space in the world simultaneously feel so insubstantial? Is it just my fancy that pain and problems are slowly eroding me or am I disappearing up my own most substantial and earthly backside in an agony of self-indulgent angst?

How can I be this gothy while wearing pink?

42 comments:

Anonymous said...

I always knew I was in love with your diaphanous loveliness, softness and sexiness- but love, those pics take the cake. Do with me what you will you gorgeous woman. I am yours for life,

Bewitched, besotted and bewildered --sigh--

Beau

Anonymous said...

Did I also say --oh my god you are so lovely in pink?

I may not get much sleep tonite, darlin'
Beau

Anonymous said...

Once more: tonight I shall put on Casablanca and you will be Ilsa and I will be Rick and we'll always have Paris.
Beau

Walker said...

Pretty in Pink
Naughty in Black
Yet naked to the sun's rays

Anonymous Boxer said...

I can feel the blood pressure rising of your male readers (and some female) all the way over on this side of the pond!

You are everything good about female.

Boo(duh) said...

Pink suits you, even if you are angsty. Chin up sweets! Happy HNT!

bittersweet said...

gorgeous pics, darling, and sadness too ... a powerful combination x

Curvaceous Dee said...

That spider brooch ... just gorgeous (and it bet it's happy to be there too - do you call it Charlotte?).

You, my dear, can be gothy in pink, diaphanous clothing - it's all in the attitude, and you have it in spades!

xx Dee

Baby said...

Love what you are wearing - also the Spider... Happy HNT :)

Jason said...

very sexy. hhnt!

Jason said...

very sexy. hhnt!

MarcelloNYC said...

Sexy and elegant!

HHNT~

Greg & Sheryl said...

Even goths can be soft and sexy. HHNT!

Helga Hansen said...

I am so loving that little bejewelled spider!! It really draws the eye...

And "goths" are allowed to have a soft side, ya know - even frothy pink ones! HHNT!

Lapis Ruber said...

Diaphanous, delectable, desirable, delightful..... the list goes on. Happy HNT

Vixen said...

Really pretty. LOVE that last pic. You have some fabulously pretty bras!

happyHNT

Madame X said...

What beautiful pictures. Happy HNT!

Amy said...

Lordy, girl, you look delectable!

I love how you are opening up on here. Your barbedness is fun and unique, but so is your softer side. Yum!

PS I kept wondering what HHNT meant. I thought it was a typo the first time then I figured it out. Doh.

Charlene said...

i love the pin on your pink bra

Luka said...

Beau - I can see I am going to have to show the softer side of me more often! You are, as ever, far too generous and kind in your praise of a grumpy old goth. Thank you, I appreciate it :) xxx

Walker - quite so, yes!

Anonymous Boxer - *blush* I have my proud face on. Thank you.

Boo(duh) - thank you, I am feeling perkier tonight!

Bittersweet - I am an open book, aren't I?

Curvaceous Dee - I am very fond of the brooch. The spider stops the outfit being entirely girly.

I have heard this about my attitude... :) x

Baby - thank you!

Jason - I try.

Marcello - elegant! Yes. Good, I was worried I might look like a big pink blancmange.

Greg & Sheryl - this one has her moments :)

Helga - sometimes my barbs at away being polished, so I have to embrace my softer side.

Luka said...

Lapis Ruber - oh, you are good at this. Thank you!

Vixen - I am making up for all the years that larger bras looked like industrial equipment!

Madame X - thank you!

Amy - oh god, it'll be group hugs next, and then where will we be? :) Isn't it funny how we always assume people will know acronyms just because we do? Of course, I knew it stood for Have Huge Naked Tits right from the off.

Charlene - thank you, I like it too!

Anonymous said...

"Far too generous"? no way, Luka, your softer side is lovely as are you, darlin'.

Beau

Luka said...

Beau - *smoochies* xxx

Paul B said...

Very sexy pics! And along came the spider who sat down beside (on) her.

HHNT!

Luka said...

Paul - why, thank you. Yes, I like my arachnids.

Anonymous said...

Treasures those smoochies :-) Right back at ya love with a lot more of the same.

Beau

SeaRabbit said...

We all have a soft spot somewhere... and I like those faded colours... the spider is just too cool!!
HHNT!

Luka said...

Beau - you are a treasure, you know that? x

SeaRabbit - Thanks, I wanted something atmospheric to sum up my current lack of hard edges.

Anonymous said...

You're the only treasure on this site, darlin' and I am so happy I found you and it--you are a truly amazing woman and we all won''t ever let you forget it.
Fourth of July celebrations are starting here and an F-16 just went over and rattled my balls--not unlike you at times my lovely one.
You Brits remember the 4th of course--that's when we began our extended leave-taking of your hospitality and George III and took up our own form of democracy and 232 years lately we have The Shrub in the White House and chaos still reigns supreme. There are times admittedly esp. after my 'tour in Vietnam" when I have thought of leaving for England's green shores and oft times when I've kicked my own ass for not doing so. Be that as it may--with love and silliness and firecrackers, I am devotedly yours for as long as you'll have me, Luka.

love

Beau

Luka said...

Beau - I hope you'll be celebrating in style (but do please protect your balls - perhaps some supportive, close fitting underpants will do the trick?) I welcome your love and silliness and firecrackers for as long as you care to give them. x

Anonymous said...

Wearing underpants? no way--haven't for years--like the free swinging life myself. As for celebrating I'll take my book and my thoughts of you darlin, and head to the pub and down a few Guinnesses in honour of all the boys I knew who didn't come home so long ago.

my love to you, honey

Frank

Southern Sage said...

loving the pics.
very sexy
soft looks good on you....

Tom Allen said...

How can I be this gothy while wearing pink?

::laughs::

We're imagining you ripping the pink off to display the rest of your fleshy delights.

Oh, wait - passion isn't Goth either, is it?

Luka said...

Beau - I knew you would be the hanging loose type :) x

Sage - thank you. I may try soft more often.

Tom - I am beginning to think I may not be entirely goth.

Ro said...

Tolstoy wrote “The means to gain happiness is to throw out from oneself like a spider in all directions an adhesive web of love, and to catch in it all that comes”.

It looks like this beautiful spider is in the ideal place :)

Happy HNT!

Luka said...

Ro - what an apt quotation! You literary lovely, you.

anna louise said...

You look like a goddess in the sunlight and i love that spider on bra.

Luka said...

Anna Louise - now you have made me want to take those pics again, only with more arms next time.

Caroline Shepherd said...

Wow, awesome spider brooch!

Luka said...

Caroline - thank you, I needed something to take the edge off my candyfloss outfit.

puckrup said...

Woooowww....um, what was that you were saying? For once, my pulse was racing a lite too fast for me to actually listen...
Exquisite and otherworldly and very beautiful :)

puckrup said...

...and forgive the spelling error, it's 'mite' of course...I blame it on your pictures....both aesthetic and hugely erotic! My favourite combination!